Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Journal #16: Christmas :)

Christmas time again. Its such a wonderful holiday, with many different traditions. There is Santa Claus and his reindeer and baby Jesus in a manger. Christmas is a time to celebrate family. It its the time to give and receive gifts. I love everything about Christmas. I love the colors, music, movies, and the overall feeling of Christmas. When I was younger, it used to be all about what my mom had gotten me and whether or not it was on the list I had given her.

I remember one year when all I really wanted was these Airwalk shoes. On Christmas eve, my mom allowed us to open one present and I remember choosing the one that I thought was going to be the shoes. When I started tearing the paper off, I could see the Airwalk symbol and I was really happy, until I opened the box and in it was puzzle pieces. All I wanted to do was cry. But instead I told my mother that I loved the present. Later that night, my mom surprised me with the shoes that I had asked for.

Every year I love watching all the Christmas movies and shows that they play on television. I love all the old classic Christmas programs, they are my favourite. But in general I just love the Christmas shows. I like watching them with my family and drinking some hot chocolate.
Another thing that I really enjoy is the music. All the songs are so cheerful and fun to sing along to.

Christmas is such a great time of year and I am always excited when it comes around. :)

Journal #15: Digital Education

How do you feel about blogging now that you have had an opportunity to develop a history with it over the past two and a half months? Do you feel that you are more or less organized and productive than you would be "the old fashioned way?" What are some of the advantages? What are some of the drawbacks? What advice might you give to students starting the course next semester about how to get the most out of their blogging experience?

Before this class, I would have probably never started using a blog. I had always heard of people using them and writing down their opinions on issues and sometimes to just rant about something. But I never gave a thought to using a blog of my own. At this beginning of this class, when using a blog for our journals was mentioned, I wasn't too thrilled. I am not a huge fan of computers because I can barely work them and I just don't like spending to much time on them. I don't have a computer at home and I think that its good. I think that kids spend far to much time on them. But back to the whole blogging situation after two and a half months, I now know how to fully operate this website although I am still confused about the whole diigo thing. Ha ha.

I find that I am a very organized person, so using this blog as opposed to a pen and paper hasn't changed my organizational skills. I keep a journal at home and I enjoy writing in it, but this blogging thing has had its advantages. It has saved many trees that this class would have other wise killed by printing and writing on paper that would have ended up in the garbage. So for our poor trees, this blogging has been great. Also another advantage to this whole blogging class, I don't actually have to carry my heavy bag around because I don't need my binder. Some disadvantages of blogging would be that I don't have a computer so when I go home, I cant work on my blogs or anything unless I go to my aunts and use the computer. Another disadvantage would be that this blogging stop doesn't have spell check or anything, so there are times when I have to go back and edit my blogs after publishing because I notice spelling and grammar mistakes.

To the kids that are taking this class next semester, I would tell them that this a great class for creativity and in order to develop your writing and helps computer challenged people like me figure out how to create blogs. ha ha.

Journal #14: Nurturing Your Inner Writer

To what extent are people born writers? How much are they able to cultivate the writer within through education and experience?
What activities and experiences can you engage in in order to develop your inner writer? What part of your past has best helped you become the writer you are now? How motivated are you to continue developing your writing ability over a lifetime?




I think that if everyone put the effort into that they could write. Some people say that they are not creative and they cant write because of that. But as we have learned in writer's craft, the first thing that a writer is taught is to write what they know. So really anyone could write something. I mean yes there are people that are just born to write it seems. But to a certain extent we could all write if we really wanted to. I think that with education people can learn proper sentence structuring, literary devices, and spelling which would definitely improve a persons quality of writing. I also think that a lot of people use their personal experiences as something to write about and most of time they make interesting stories.
To develop your writing, I think you can explore other people's work and that will give you different views on topics and it will help you create your own opinion base.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Journal #13: Writing as a Lifestyle

What do you think about the writer's lifestyle? How much of it appeals to you? Which aspect least appeal to you. Can you envision yourself doing the job? Describe how writing might either fit into your lifestyle or become your lifestyle in the future.

As with any career, writing as a lifestyle would have its ups and downs. Philip Roth mentioned that writing is a profession in which no one can help you . I totally agree with that statement. I know that the only time I really want help from someone when I am writing, its when I want someone to look over it and edit it. I believe that to write you have to reach within yourself in and find something that will appeal to you and that you would be able to write. I think that writing can be a difficult but rewarding task. Some times as a writer you get writer's block and then you are totally unsure of what to write and when you try to write you just delete it. I have a habit of keeping everything I write though. I find that sometimes I will go back and use things that I may have written down a while back and just never used. But, as far as writing as a lifestyle, I don't think that it would be for me. But I really do enjoy writing because it gives me the opportunity to express myself through journals, poetry and sometimes even short stories.
There are many people that do write as a lifestyle but I would feel as if there was more besides writing that I could be doing. A lot of writers struggle before any of their work is recognized and before they begin making any money for their work. I am not sure how some of those people who spend years writing and don't make any money, can support themselves. It is so expensive to live now a days, so i would want a job that I knew for sure I could make money doing. I think that instead of writing as a lifestyle, I would write as a hobby. I would write whenever I had the time and when I thought that I had a good idea. I love writing and I will continue to do it in the future but it wont be my lifestyle.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Journal #11: Childhood

The idea that childhood is a special time and that a child's innocence should be protected largely originated with the Victorians. Before that, children were sent to work in factories as soon as they were old enough, often working 10 hour days at the age of 7 or 8. Chimney Sweeps used to employ even younger children since they could be dangled from a rope and used to knock soot and highly carcinogenic coal dust out of chimneys. By the time these young people reached the ripe old age of 15 or 16 they were adults for all intents and purposes.


Now, as a society, we have reached a point where we try to insulate children from the more unpleasant and laborious aspects of life but we have also delayed adulthood for many. Some "children" (perhaps you know some?) continue to live in their parents' basements until their late twenties. What do you think? How much (and from what) should children be protected? How well are we handling this issue now as a society? What kind of childhood will you try to create for your own offspring? What expectations will you have? What are some of the most valuable experiences and lessons from your own childhood that you will try to pass on to the next generation?


First of all, I think it is crazy when there are people that are in their twenties not doing much with their lives and living off their parents. By that age they should be out in the world trying to create a life separate from the ones they had with their parents. They should be out getting jobs and making families of their own. They should not be still living with their parents. My cousin is twenty two years old and has graduated from home school but is still living in his parents basement. He does not have a job and all he does is party. He is a really smart kid and could be making something of himself but instead he is just living with his parents still and having everything handed to him. I think that his parents should sit him down and tell him that he need to get a job and start making a future for himself. I think people like him need to smarten up and start living independently making a future for themselves.
As little kids, our parents try and protect us from everything and to a certain degree that is their job. Our parents don't want us to get sick or fall off our bike and hurt ourselves. Parents who are having difficulties in their marriage also try to protect their children form seeing that. But when a child becomes an adult, the parent can no longer protect their child as much whether they like it or not. The child needs to face the world themselves. If the parents have taught their child well, then the parent should not be worried to realize their child into the world. But if the parent did not teach their child well then they should be worried about what might happen to their children.
When I have children, I am going to teach my children all they need to know in order to be successful in life. I am going to install the good morals and values that my mom installed in me. I am going to teach my child to have good manners and to know right from wrong. I will make sure that my child is never exposed to some of the horrible things I have been through. I don't want my child to have to live through the same horrible things that I have been through. But I will let my child know that life is hard and sometimes they will have to struggle. I will make sure that my child is strong, independent and is a leader. I want my child to know that they can do anything that they can put their mind to. I will do all that I can to make my child a good person. But once my child reaches a certain age I can only hope that they keep the morals and values that I install in them.
As far as expectations, I would just hope that my child reaches their potential and that they never just settle. I hope that they dream big and reach for the stars. I hope that they will grow up to be well-rounded individuals. I hope that they will always respect other people and be a nice person.

Journal #12: Almost Eighteen and Confused about my Future

What do you want to do with the rest of your life? Teacher? Doctor? Actor? If you ask most people my age, they have a pretty good idea of what they want to do with their life. I mean most of my friends are now in university and working towards their desired career. But nope not me. I am almost eighteen years old and I have already graduated from high school. But instead of me being in university studying for a future career, I am still in high school. Its not that I don't enjoy high school because I do. But I really wish that I would have been as prepared as my friends and know what I want to do with my life.
I recently went to a university/college information session and I was given a sheet in which I was supposed to fill out what schools and programs I wanted to apply for. But how can I apply to schools, if I am not even sure what I want to do with my future. I was very discouraged leaving that presentation, especially when everyone around me seemed to know exactly where they were applying to.
I know what my passions are. I love drama, English, writing and sociology. I also really like working with kids. I want to help make a better future for the future children. I mean I sometimes think that I want to be a teacher and sometimes I think that I want to go to school to become a youth worker or something along those lines.
It is almost coming time (again) where I should be applying to university and I am totally unsure of what I want to even apply to. I am so worried that I will go to become a teacher and realize that I should have went and done social work.
It is such a hard decision at the age of seventeen having to figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life. I have a hard time deciding what I will wear in the morning or eat for dinner. How am I supposed to decide what to do with my life?

Journal #4: Young Love

Love. What is it? Does anyone really know? According to the dictionary love is a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. Well that may be true, all people define love in a different way. I believe that when you love someone you cant stop thinking about that person because they are always on your mind. Its when you know that you would do anything for that one person, including giving your life for them. Its when you feel like your life would never be complete unless you had that person in your life. To love someone is to let someone into your heart. To take a risk at getting your heart broken. Love can be beautiful and love can be painful, but I believe it is something that everyone wants to experience at one point or another. Who wouldn't want to feel love for another person. Who wouldn't want to know what its like to have someone love you? Everyone falls in love at one point or another.

But one thing that really bothers me is when people tell me or other young people that we are too young to fall in love. Is there a specific age in which people can fall in love? No, I don't think so. When you find that one person and fall in love, it could be at any age. So why do people say things like "no you cant be in love, you are too young". I believe that a person can fall in love when they are a teenager. There are many couples who have fallen in love when they were teenagers and who are still married to this day at the ages of sixty.

Love happens sometimes when you least expect it. I don't think that there is a specific time that you can say that you will fall in love. There is the people who fall in love from the first look or the people who after a little while together fall in love.

I know that I have been with my boyfriend for a while and I love him. But, my grandmother and mother say that I am too young to know what love is. Every time they say that it really bothers me. I mean how do they know? They don't know how I feel about him and when they ask and I tell them, they don't believe I could possibly love someone at the age of only seventeen.

I believe that love will happen when you least expect it. It is such an amazing moment when you find the person you love.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Journal #5: “The Irony of Education”

Why is it that in North America we (as a society) seem to take education for granted? In other countries students will take any opportunity they can get to improve themselves. In our society, educators sometimes have to take extreme measures to perform their function.


Ever since we were five years old, we have been going to school. We all remember that first day we ever went to school, four or five years old, screaming and crying telling our moms we didn't want them to leave. But, after all the screaming and the crying we ended up having a pretty good day. We started to enjoy school and were excited when we got to go. As we got bigger and in the older grades, the teachers seemed to be more mean, the homework was harder and school wasn't so fun anymore. I don't know if it is us as teenagers or if the teachers actually did get more mean, but school was no longer as exciting as it used to be when we were in kindergarten. Each year, we go to school from September to June and hope that the years fly by. We would much rather be hanging out with friends than stuck inside of a classroom.
We, as north Americans, have always just been expected to go to school. We feel at times like we were never given the option as to whether we want to go or not. So many people don't see the point of school and think that it is a waste of time. In my opinion, i think that there are many classes that I have taken that i don't understand the importance of. But i do think that school is very important. I enjoy school, I like the extra curricular and I like almost all of the classes I have taken. I like being taught within a classroom setting and I like almost all of my teachers.
I cant believe the number of people that do not care about school and who just drop out. Or even worse the people who sit in class with the potential to do well but just don't care enough to try. We are lucky as North Americans to have such a great education system and it is sad that many people take it for granted.
In many countries, there are children that wish that they could go to school but they don't have the opportunity. But, if someone told them that they had to go to school they would be more than happy to go. There are some kids that would give anything in order to go to school. Then there is us, we go when we feel like and we skip if we feel like it.

Journal #6: "Technology: The Myth"

One of the great myths of modern times is the idea that new technologies improve a person’s quality of life. Yet no one has ever demonstrated that access to computers increases a person’s literacy or numeracy skills. Likewise futurists in the 50's predicted that we would be enjoying a three day work week by now since machines would be doing all the manual labor. What do you think? Is your life better now than it would have been 100 years ago because of technology?

Everywhere you look there is technology and every person uses technology in today's society. When we go to school we use computers for research and for completing projects and assignments. When we go home, we are surrounded by a ton of technology such as: televisions, stereos, fridges and much more. When we go to work there is computers there that we use, they are accurate and efficient. Almost everyone has a cellphone and an i-pod or MP3 player. There is technology wherever you go.
People have become reliant on their technology and some would even say that they could not live without it. I think that it is amazing how much our society relies on technology. I am not going to say that i don't appreciate how easy life seems with technology. It is just crazy to think that people actually believe they would not be able to live without their cellphone or without checking Facebook to find the latest news on who is dating who. I mean of course these people could live without technology. What do they mean to say, that if we took away their cellphone they would quit breathing and they would die? Of course not, we know that is not the case. People could live without technology. There have been many people before us who made it through life just fine without the technology that we have today.
As far as me, i don't really think that technology is terrible. However, I do think that some people have gotten far to lazy by using it. I think that it does make things easier and sure that's nice. But maybe we, as a society, are relying a little too much on it.
I believe that with the technology we have in modern day society, life is a lot easier than it was 100 years ago. Now instead of walking everywhere, we have the luxury of cars and now we can drive where we want to go. Instead of washing clothes by hand and putting them up to dry. we now have a washer and dryer that does that for us. Also, we now have computers that we can use to communicate with others and to use when we need to research something.
As good as technology is, there are many negative things that technology has done. One thing that technology has done has decreased the number of jobs available because now instead of using people to do manual labour, we have machines that do the work for us. Also, technology has made less people socialize with one another face to face. There could be a room full of people but they are probably texting or listening to their I-pod and not even acknowledging the other people in the room. It is kind of crazy actually. I hang out with my friends and we are all just texting away and not even talking to each other really.
Technology has definitely changed our society in many good and bad ways.

Journal #7: "The Best When"

Assuming for a moment that you could transport anywhere you wanted, where and when would you rather live? No society that you know even a little bit about is off limits. You might want to consider your quality of life, societal expectations of men and women, health, access to education and recreation.


I used to think about what it would be like if I could transport anywhere. I used to wonder what places I would go and what I would get to experience. I would think for a while and then I would realize that there are many places that I would want to go. But, every time I would want to return to my home. I like the life I live nowadays, for the most part. I mean if I could change certain aspects of my life well then I would take full advantage of that. But this was the life that I was given and so I have to make the best of it. I cant let obstacles stand in my way of enjoying life. I like knowing that when I get sick I can go to the hospital and they will find a way to help. I like knowing that I can get a career and not just stay at home and have kids and clean the house. I like knowing that I can freely practice religion if I wanted to and I don’t have to worry.
There are places that I would like to travel to like: Italy, Ireland, Luxembourg and also I have always wanted to drive from one side of Canada to the other side. I would want to travel with my husband or even my mom.
The first place I would want to travel is Italy. I have seen pictures and that country looks really beautiful. I also have some family that live down there because that is where my biological father is from. We have studied about Italy and I have seen movies in which Italy has been described and I think it would be a great place to visit. This would be my first place that I would want to travel to because ever since I was a little girl I have wanted to go there.
The second place I would want to go to is Ireland. Again I have seen pictures of the landscape in Ireland and it looks really beautiful. I think that it would be a good experience to go and visit her. I also think it would be cool to learn more about the culture and living conditions of the people who live there. This would be the second place I would visit because I really want to go there and see what its like.
The third place I would want to visit is Luxembourg. There was an exchange from Luxembourg that had come to my school who I was really close to. He was a really amazing person and we learned a lot from each other. I was really upset when he left because we had been inseparable and did everything together. He had come to Canada for six months and he had not really known much about Canada so I taught him what I knew. He had turned eighteen when he was here and he had never Tim Hortons so I brought him there. But anyways, I would really love to go and visit where he had come from because I think it would be a great experience and I would get to see him.
The last thing I have wanted to do was drive across Canada and visit the beauty of our country because there are many nice places to visit. This might actually be the first thing I do before visiting other countries. But I guess I will have to see.

Journal #8 Important people

Sometimes when I think about all the things I have been through, I think about how it was possible for me to make it through it. I have been through many hard times. There have been times when I thought that life really sucked and that it couldn't possibly get any worse. When I think about how I made it through everything, I realize that without the amazing people in my life it wouldn't have been possible.
Of course, i have great teachers who help me within the classroom setting, they help me achieve good grades. They work with me everyday and make sure that I understand what I need to know in order to be successful. There have been many teachers who have helped me and have showed that they care about not only my grades but the hard times I was faced with at home. When I was at my old school, my grade eleven English teacher Mrs. Haaf was really the only teacher that I liked. But at Stamford there are many teachers that have been amazing with both me and my family like: Mrs. Brady, Mrs. Gaines, Ms. Mc Allister, Mr. Baty, Mr. Pierce, Mr. Martin and Mr. Mac Donald. All of these teachers have either helped me or helped out my family. But without the amazing teachers I have, school would not be that great for me sometimes.
Then there is my brother and sister. We don't always get along but I mean we are siblings and we have our little arguments from time to time. We are all different and have different opinions and think differently. My brother is big on sports and watches nothing but football. I cannot tell you how annoying it is when my brother is hogging the TV watching boring football. But other than his sports thing him and I are actually really close even though he is four years younger than I am. He is also really protective of my mother, sister and I because he feels he needs to be. My sister is a little more kept to herself unless she is upset because then she will let us know. We get along fairly well but she is involved in a youth group so she is busy a lot. But, I know if I need anything my brother and sister will be there for me in a heartbeat. We have been through a lot together and it is nice to talk to them.
There is also my boyfriend Drew. He has been really amazing when it comes to the things that I have been through at home. He has seen and heard things that I really wish he hadn't but he has been really supportive. He is very good to talk to even though he sometimes doesn't know the right thing to say. He is always there when I need someone to sit with me while I cry. He is also really good with my family. He hangs out with my brother and is a positive male influence on my brother. he takes my brother out and protects my brother like he would if he had siblings. He is an amazing person and I am so lucky to have someone like him.
But the most amazing person in my life is my mom. She has been through a lot and sometimes she just wants to be alone. But she has been staying strong for my brother sister and I. She is trying to do the best she can for my family. She is getting better everyday and I am really proud of her. She is the best mom anyone could have and I am lucky that I have her.
All the people in my life have been really supportive and without them, I am not sure that I could make it through the day.

Journal #9: "Lockdown"

The world is a different place than it was prior to the shootings in Montreal, Columbine and an number of other places. How much do you pay attention to violent issues in the media? How safe do you feel in school? What suggestions do you have for finding our way (as a society) to a more peaceful state? Do you have any thoughts, comments, opinions or suggestions about the situation at Stamford on October 14th, 2009?

I can honestly say that I don’t watch the news on TV, there always seems to be something esle that i would rather watch on television. It’s not that I don’t care about issues that are going on in the world because I do. But there are so many stories that are sad or that I would just rather not hear about, so I avoid watching the news. There are so many bad things that happen in the world and it saddens and sometimes disgusts me at things people are capable of doing. But, I have heard about the various shootings that have happened within schools such as Montreal and Columbine and it never ceases to scare me. I mean what terrible things could have possibly happened to the people who get the idea that they want to go into a school and start shooting at people. My mom told me that when she was in school, the idea of a kid coming into the school and shooting up the place did not cross either the students or teachers mind. She said that she thinks that it is crazy that now a days we have to worry about whether or not someone is going to get upset and take their anger out with a gun at school. Before the famous shooting at Columbine and Montreal, I believe that schools did not take gun and bomb threats serious. I mean I do not think that they wanted to imagine or believe that a student would come into a school with a gun or bomb, therefore they did not take the threats seriously. However now, school administrators are seeing that some teenagers are not afraid to bring a gun or bomb to school and use it on other people, if they deem it necessary. so now whenever there is a threat of a bomb or gun, the school adminstrators take action into figuring out who, what and why the threat is being presented. But why is it that the world has gotten to the point where we, as students, cant go to school knowing whether or not it will be a regular day or a day in which there is a threat made?
Nowadays, we have to worry about whether someone could come to school with a gun or even bombs and threaten our lives. The school is supposed to be a safe learning environment where we get the education we need in order to work towards our future. But, schools are no longer seen as safe as they used to be. There are kids that are scared to go to school. And why? They are scared that something bad might happen to them while they are there. they are worried that they may get hurt at school.
But personally, I do feel safe within my school because I know that my school takes all the appropriate steps when a threat is made. I know that they do what they can to insure that no one in our school is seriously hurt, if hurt at all. I know that the administrators within our school do their best to prevent any student from getting in harms way whether it be a gun threat or any threat in general.
On October 14th, when the threat was made of a bomb within Stamford, I know that our staff and principals did what they could in order to make sure that everyone was safe. The staff checked all the classrooms and we even went into a lockdown. Our teachers made sure that no one panicked and made us feel safe.
But, I really don’t think that there is a way to completely prevent threats of bombs or guns within schools. If a student really has the intent of bringing either a gun or bomb to school and threatening the school, I believe that they will find a way. I believe that we could try to see any warning signs that a threat may occur.
It is scary to think that people could possibly come into the school and threaten the lives of their peers. But, it seems that the world has become unsafe whether we are at school, the grocery store or even the comfort of our own homes.

Journal #10: "What is Poetry?"

Reflect upon your past experience with poetry, as well as your idea of what poetry is. How useful, in your opinion, is the study of poetry? How open-minded are you about our study of poetry?



I love poetry. When I was younger, I used to write a lot of poems. If I was upset I would wrote poems because I seemed to have so much that I wanted to say. I would write poems upon poems and I would keep a journal underneath my pillow, just in case I had a sudden urge to write something. There were times when I would wake up at night and start writing down things. I didn’t want to forget what I was thinking because I thought that they might make a really good poem. I used to write about many different things. What I would write, depended on how I was feeling when I was writing. I read my old poems now and I can still imagine what had happened or what I was feeling when I originally wrote my poems. I believe that with some editing and re-wording of some of the poetry, they have good potential. I still write poems but not as much as I used to. I find that now instead of writing poems I tend to just keep a journal. I like writing down my thoughts and opinions in a journal because is it helpful for me, in order to clear my head. Every night before I go to bed I write down how I am feeling and any significant things that may have happened in the day. Sometimes I find writing in my journal is better than talking to someone like my mom or my friends. I find that there are times when I can write a poem from feelings or events that I have written in my journal. I enjoy both reading and writing poetry. Although, there is some poetry that confuses me, I like to read them and try to figure out what their meaning is.
I think that poetry is feelings, thoughts and opinions on certain topics that are written in creative ways such as rhyming patterns. Poetry has a sort of magic to it, the way words can be used to express feelings and make you feel a certain way. I believe that the best poetry is probably written when someone has a lot of emotions that they just let loose in the form of writing. I believe that when someone just starts writing without a lot of planning, it can be beneficial because you don’t think too much. When you just write from the heart, you could produce some really meaningful pieces. I believe that once the person has written everything down, then they could go back and add in the rhyming schemes and words that may work better.
In school, I think that the study of poetry can be a little tedious for teachers. There are students that enjoy poetry and then there are students who do not like poetry at all. I believe that people either like poetry or they do not. So the study of poetry in school can become pointless for some groups of kids, if they really don’t care in the first place. I know from past experiences in school that some kids do not appreciate the value of poetry and make it hard for other kids who actually want to learn. I believe that in our writers craft class that, we as students are interested in writing may have more of an open mind to learning about poetry. But, some people may like writing poetry and some may not.
I always get excited when teachers say we will be doing a poetry unit. So I am looking forward to what we will learn in this class about poetry. I hope that I will learn more about effective poetry writing. I believe that I will enjoy this poetry unit.

Journal #3 "The Pen is mightier than the Sword"

Writers have an extraordinary potential to change people's minds and to create revolutions. Reflect upon some of the radical changes that have been wrought by such texts as The Declaration of Independence, Uncle Tom's Cabin, and The Communist Manifesto. What issues or topics are you interested in exploring in your writing? What changes do you feel are worth making?


When it comes to writing, I usually write about something that interests me or something that I can relate to. If I am given a topic and it doesn't interest me or I cant relate to it in some way I have a really hard time writing. There are a few issues that I find I can write well on and that is because some of them I can relate to and some really interest me. An issue that has really affected me was being raised in an abusive relationship. An environment that no women, man or child should have to live in. But, I did live in one and there is nothing that I can do to change that.
When people try to write and talk about this issue and don’t know what they are talking about, it really upsets me. They always say that they know what they would do if they lived in that situation. But I really doubt they would know what they would do. When you think that a man has come to be the father that you never had and he begins to abuse your family, it is hard for you to know what to do. You want to help the man and try to help him get better but he never changes. People also always say how could a women put herself and children through that, maybe because that women is scared if she lives he will kill her or her children. I really believe that unless someone has lived in an environment like I have they cant talk about it.
I believe that in the long run living the way I had has made me a stronger person. But I remember nights laying awake listening to my mom cry and beg for him to stop what he was doing. I remember walking and running for miles and miles just to get away from him. Sometimes we would walk in snow, rain, and scorching heat but we had to get away. I remember all the times my mom had gotten hurt and all the times my brother, sister and I were as well. No one knows what its like to wonder whether your mom would still be breathing when you woke up in the morning, unless you have been through it.
No one knows what its like to have all your money stolen from you because he is spending his money on things other than food and bills, unless you have been through it. There are just certain issues that people should not talk about unless they know what it is like and I feel like abusive home environments is one of them.

Journal #2 "Your legacy"

Why wait? It’s time to think about what you will leave behind after your time on the "third rock from the sun" is finished. Some people manage to leave a great deal of wealth or a legacy of public service. Others are long remembered for their monumental works of art. A lucky few are long cherished by adoring family and friends. How do you want to be remembered? What will be your reason for being?

I want to be remembered as someone who was friendly, who would smile and wave hello whenever I saw someone I knew. I want to be remembered as someone who got along with almost everyone and who people enjoyed having around. I want to be the person that had fun but also knew when it was time to be serious. I want to be the person that people knew that they could come to if they ever had a problem. I want to be a person that lived up to my potential and never let obstacles I was faced with bring me down. I want to be the kind of person that touched people’s life in a positive way.

I want to be a daughter who made her mother proud. A daughter who took care of my mom when she got elderly and could no longer take care of herself. I want to be a sister, that no matter what, was there for my brother and sister when they needed me to be. I want to be a sister that will support my siblings in whatever they want to do or be in life. I want to be the relative that my family knows that I will help them out in any way that I can. I want to be a wife that is always there for my husband, who supports him through everything. I want to be a wife who honours all the promises I made to him on our wedding day. I want to be a mother who loves and protects her children. I want to be a mother who will let my children know that they can be whoever they want and do whatever they want, when they put their mind to it. In my career, whether I become a teacher or a youth worker, I want to be someone who helped children. If I become a teacher, I want to be a teacher that taught students all they needed to know in order to be successful. I want to be a teacher who was not only nice but strict at the same time. If I become a youth worker, I want to help teenagers who have gone through tough childhoods, like I did. I want to help as many young people as I can because I know that without the help from the teachers and my youth worker, I wouldn’t be the adult I had become.

All in all, I want to be someone who people will look back and remember with a smile on their face. I want to help as many teenagers as I can. I want to die knowing that I made a good influence on the world. I want to know that I took risks and lived my life to the fullest potential.

Journal #1: "Write what you know"

The first rule that most writers learn is to "write what they know". What do you know? What issues, topics, experiences and genres do you feel comfortable tackling? What are some topics that do you think that you should avoid? What sort of research might you be interested in doing in order to write more effectively?

Having been through a lot and moving around, I have learned about a lot of things. I used to read a lot whenever I moved to a new place about many different things because I hadn’t made any friends yet. There are many things that I have learned in the almost eighteen years I have been alive. Although eighteen years is not a long time, I have been through many things and gained many experiences that other people at my age probably haven’t.
I have experienced loss. Every time that I moved I had to leave behind another group of friends that I would probably never see again. Loss is such a terrible feeling, you feel like there is this whole inside of you, a void, that now you have to find a way to fill. I have experienced loss of a family member and that is a really heartbreaking and scary experience. I had one of my aunts die and it was by far the saddest time of my life. To feel loss is really unfortunate and I would not wish that anyone had to go through it. Unfortunately, at one time or another everyone will go through a form of loss at one point or another.
I have experienced moving around. I have lived in so many different places I would have a hard time even naming them all. When I was younger, I thought that moving was fun because it meant a new bedroom. But, as I got older it became a very tedious thing. I hated moving after a while and still do. But by moving, I have learned about how to deal with change and learn to try and make things work.
I have experienced living in an abusive household. It’s a very horrible environment for anyone to live in. But by living in one, I have learned to be strong and to not let anyone bring me down. I have learned that life is not easy, sometimes it’s just plain hard. But, if you fight for what you want and believe you can be successful. i learned that there will be struggles in life and that sometimes you wont get what you want. But even when you don't get what you want at first, you should keep try. Perseverance is always beneficial.
I think that as of right now topics I should avoid would be history, science fiction and things like that. I am not really that educated about topics like those. So, I would not be able to write about them and if I did it probably would not be that good because I really wouldn’t know what I was talking about.
I am open to researching anything in order to write more effectively. I enjoy writing and would be open to any ideas that would help me become a better writer. I enjoy learning new things, so if I had to study on a certain topic, I would. I wouldn’t just study to write about something but also because I just like learning new things.